By Deborah Curtis, faber & faber (1995)
The author gives her account of life with Ian Curtis, the lead singer of Joy Division. This is no fawning biography of a rock god. She admits he was a jealous and possessive husband who was fascinated with Nazi Germany and voted Conservative to boot. But it’s not an embittered tale. Deborah’s love and compassion for Curtis shines through, despite the fact that they had split up by the time of his death. He’d also found another lover, a Belgian fan called Annik Honore.
This candid account of domestic life with a legend explains how the Curtis’ teenage marriage gradually fell apart. It’s hard to imagine Courtney Love ever talking about Kurt Cobain in the following manner: If Ian was going to play the tortured soul on stage, it would be easier without the watchful eye of the woman who washed his underpants.
Anyone who has ever seen footage of Joy Division knows that Ian Curtis had stage presence and charisma to burn. Other members of Joy Division and Factory music boss Anthony Wilson, also contribute to the story. You get the overall impression that the whole world was a stage for Ian Curtis and that he mapped out his own Greek tragedy. He suffered from epilepsy and it’s disturbing to realise that he sometimes had fits on stage - the crowd took it as part of the act due to his dancing, which was unorthodox at the best of times.
The story is harrowing and is not suitable reading for anyone in the depths of depression. In May 1980, Deborah found Ian Curtis dead at their home with a rope around his neck. A record, The Idiot by Iggy Pop, was still going round on the turntable. Two days later Joy Division were to embark on a tour of the USA. The band had come a long way from the days when their girlfriends used to sit on the amplifiers to prevent theft. Deborah says the only reason Ian had ceased to be anxious about the American tour was that he knew he wouldn't be going.
The book also includes a discography and lyrics. In my view Love Will Tear Us Apart (1980), remains one of the best songs of its era. The lyrics are sublime:
You cry out in your sleep,
All my failings exposed.
And there’s a taste in my mouth,
As desperation takes hold.
Just that something so good just can’t function no more.
Is this Curtis on his marriage? And how about this from Passover (also 1980):
This is the crisis I knew had to come,
Destroying the balance I’d kept,
Turning around to the next set of lives,
Wondering what will come next.
Not bad poetry that, especially when you consider that Ian Curtis didn’t see his 24th year.








